Who knew I could produce something so beautiful...a daughter called Martha
I spent a long time saying I wasn't going to have children, that I couldn't do it, that I'm too selfish and then all of a sudden I was struck with the need to have a baby. That was 9 years ago...and in two days time my beautiful daughter called Martha turns 9.
We are so alike Martha and I. She cries at the same things I cry at, we have the same dirty laugh and sometimes I know that is why we 'butt heads' but I know my life would never be the same without her. I can't wait to keep making memories with her (and her sister). I catch myself sometimes, too busy to make memories and kick myself. I'm busy preparing for school, or working on photos, or facebooking (she knows I'm addicted to social media) and I forget that it could be the last time she asks me to take her picture, or the last time she asks for a cuddle or the last time she wants to show me her 'show' because she's growing up...because she will move on and leave me behind....I feel like the Abba song would be appropriate here!
For her birthday she's asked for a 'proper camera' we went with the Pentax WG4, I shoot Pentax too and I'm honoured and touched she wants to do it like me! It gives us a perfect excuse to make time for each other and both do something we love.
I saw a poem when she was a baby.... I hope my child looks back on today And sees a mother who had time to play. There will be years for cleaning and cooking, But children grow up when you’re not looking. Tomorrow I’ll do all the chores you can mention But today, my baby needs time and attention. So settle down cobwebs; dust go to sleep, I’m cuddling my baby, and babies don’t keep.
....I admit it, I forgot....but I will remember...I will be the best mother you could want. I know you love me Martha and I love you! I love you when I am grumpy in the mornings, I love you when you forget to keep your bedroom tidy, I love you when you are telling me "its not FAIR" , I love you when you come home from school and tell me about your boyfriend, I love you when I tell you off, I love you when you make me a ribena....have you got it yet - I LOVE YOU MARTHA!